I had so much fun with Lucas today and yet today I sadness and darkness looming over me. But let's talk about to good part of the day. I woke up and had a meal bar and coffee and fixed Lucas some toast and milk. I did some chores and while taking Daisy, our lab, outside Lucas discovered it was cold outside and he became very intrigued and amused by this. Giggling and running in and out in just his underwear and and pj top. So, I decided to bundle him up and let him run around the back yard. Since, thankfully, daddy mowed the backyard!
After playing in the backyard for a couple hours I thought it would be nice if I made some homemade cocoa. So I did. It was lukewarm when I gave Lucas a drink and he spit it out on the floor! I thought it was too hot or he didn't like it but neither was the case! He said, "nummy hot!" I had the get the video camera out and video him talking about the hot chocolate.
As for the darkness looming over my day, it's been one year and one month since we have been trying to convince and I want to focus on the beautiful son I have but I have always wanted a big family and some days there is this emptiness inside.
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