I choose to leap with joy!

Never in a million years did I think that I would be diagnosed with a condition that not only is harmless and I've had my whole life but yet heartbreaking. Because this condition, pelvic kidney, has stunted the development of my reproductive organs, thus leaving me with infertility
issue! And if I was to manage to get pregnant I will would be a high risk pregnancy?! Go figure! I was given such beautiful pregnancy with Lucas it is almost unbelievable. I was made for this! No one can truly grasp my desire to bare children, to have a big family, I've wanted these things since I was a girl. The only joy I have right now is knowing God is making me a stronger person because of this and He has a beautiful plan for me and my family. Oh how I wished I cherished moments more and complained less lol during my pregnancy. I wish I took more pictures. But I will hug my child, carry my child, rock my child, be thankful for my beautiful baby Lucas everyday without ceasing I will give thanks to our Heavenly Father. Somehow, I am happy... Somehow I choose to see the good. That somehow is knowing that God takes care of us. And as far as I'm concerned Lucas is my little miracle baby.